On the first of every month, I receive a spiritual message sent to my e-mail. The first thing I did this morning was read that message. Because of it, I felt a need to spend some quiet time in prayer. In contemplative prayer, I haven’t a clue as to which way my thoughts/prayers will turn. As it happened, today, I asked for an increase in humility.
“Ask and ye shall receive”
(After writing this quote, my curiosity got the best of me. Where did it come from? I looked it up to find out it came from no other place than the Bible, of course…how very appropriate….no coincidences in this post, or on this day in general)!
I received humility, in abundance today. I read many, many wonderful slices of life, and immediately thought:
I can’t do this!
Compete against all these wonderful, talented writers????
I don’t stand a chance!
I am not creative enough!
I am way too old!
After my initial inner rant and rave, beating myself up, and the onset of depression, I realized what was happening. The answer to my prayer!
So, after saying a prayer of thanks, I realized that intermingled with humility was compassion, support, and the possibility of new friendships. On the very first day of slicing, I have changed the way I look at this time, my slicing time. I am here to learn:
About writing – This will make me a better teacher of writing. I have already begun to see some areas that I know I can improve upon. In the last couple of days I have made a new best friend with a thesaurus based app that I downloaded awhile ago and never used before. This is something I want to spend more time modeling and practicing with my students. And that is only the beginning.
About life – This is not a competition. I need to do the best I can, and be comfortable with the result. I have to stop beating myself up when I come up short, and be happy with the lesson learned. And, just as important, I have to teach my struggling, but overly frustrated students to do the same.
About myself – This gives me a chance to reflect, really reflect on all aspects of my life. My reflection happens in the middle of the night when I should be asleep, and because I am in that partial sleep mode, it really does no good. I usually forget by the time the alarm goes off. My reflections will now be written so I can return to them at any time.
About God – When I cooperate with Him who loves me, He will send me what I need in a gentle, loving manner. Today he sent me humility, along with a compassionate, supportive new group of friends to help soften the blow.
Life is good.